Need a Plan for My Marriage

[Onthemountaintop]

Focus on the interview!

[DaddyLongShanks]

IDU,

You are right that it does drive you crazy "mind reading." I just can't help it sometimes. You are about what you said.

I am pretty sure that I saw him and another person outside my apartment last night. He watched my kids for a fews minutes. They were laughing until my daughter looked at them, and they left quickly. The description fit everything the OMW told me a couple a weeks ago.

I took the kids to the store, and my wife was gone for a couple of hours. She said she took a walk, but it was no coincidence that she was gone. Maybe "mind reading" but it is just too coincidental for me. I do not like someone watching my kids. Makes me sick!

My life probably would be better without her.

I have my interview today and talk to my attorney today. It is going to be a busy day for me.

I will always be there for the kids.

You are so helpful to keep me looking forward, not back.

Thanks!

LSG - Others,

I guess when they stop caring about whats important to you, your done. This is a good read on the mind-reading is that it usually does more harm than good and wastes alot of your time. Its better to find something else to focus on. You sound good and I hope you land this job.

[LSG]

DLS,

How you been? I have not heard from you in awhile.

I am doing good today, and I am so excited about the interview today. I have not prepared as much as usual, but I am confident that I will be the candidate selected for the position.

Tell you about it later.

[LSG]

There was a mix up and the interview was not today. I am bummedout. He said he try to get me in today, or be the first person to meet with them. I will still have an interview, but I will have to wait.

I guess they know that I am interested, huh.

[idontunderstand]

Chin up, LSG.

You are still the right person for this job. So you'll have to wait another day. Use the time to prepare more for the interview. Look at it as a blessing in disguise. Then, go in and present the LSG that you have become in the last few months: strong, confident, secure and sure of yourself.

Good luck. I am praying and pulling for you.

[LSG]

Filling out divorce paperwork now, and it seems so much better than first time. I don't if having an attorney makes a difference, but I sure do feel a lot more secure. Everyone has been saying I could do it myself. I could, but emotionally I could not. It is such a burden, but I am able to handle it today.

I am glad to be able to this now. I need to do it now.

She cut off all money to joint account this payday.

Now she has her disclosures, she can do anything she wants.

Oh well...

[idontunderstand]

Hang in there, man.

[LSG]

I am doing my best to be okay. I know her next move is to bring her here with me out the of the way and brainwash the kids. It won't have for so many reasons because I am going nowhere for awhile, and I will fight her mom staying here with us.

[LSG]

I feel I am just sitting around, and that there has to be more to save my marriage. Is detaching suppose to be this way. I know I am angry at what is happening, but I should be fighting for my marriage. I know this is counter to DBing, but I do not want my marriage over. I feel this panick coming over me.

Bring me back to reality, and tell I am doing what is right. I just don't know right now. I have worked so hard to save my marriage to watch it end now. What should I do?

I just know...

[LSG]

I finished the forms today that the attorney wanted me to do when we meet. I am so glad to have those done. I have finished more than I thought. I guess I could do more than I thought. I am so glad to have some confidence about this divorce even though it is the last thing that I want to have happen. I guess it is the best for me. I am so up and down about it. I am so disappointed that she left no money in the account. Actually I am very angry. At least she paid the rent. I guess she will not be happy with the motions I will file.

I do not like this at all the way she is treating me. It is so crappy.

I hope to hear back on rescheduling the job interview. I hope I get it. I so much want this job now.

Is it hopeless for me? Is there no more that I can do with the Big D already filed? I feel hopeless about the M and possibly what will happen with the kids. I have tried for so long to have it not end. It does not seem right. I have been such a fool for so long to think I could make it work.

I am truly the biggest fool on this forum.

I see the strength of everyone here. I see the way that other sitches even in the worst case scenarios that seem to deal with issues much better than me.

I see success even in the failures here. People finding themselves while I feel eternally lost with little movement forward. It just sucks to be me.

I have to be more than me right now with the constant stunts she pulls. I just don't get it, and I guess I never will. It is just so wrong!!!