Wife lost her love for me - my story

[TomLost Love]

The story continues. Its now June - we got seperated in Feb. W has decided to move to Florida to start a new life for awhile and "see how things are" after a year (I knew about this starting in Jan, but thought maybe she'd reconsider). My D11 is going with her, which we agreed upon. I thought about fighting over custody, but thought it would be better for my D11 NOT to be in the middle of a fight - I think she is sad enough. She doesn't want to leave her life here, but she has accepted what her mother is doing and that she will be with her. My in-laws and a few other family members will be very nearby, so there is familiarity and love there for her - and she will always have mine. I will be trying to visit often once she is down there.

My D21 and S24 will be staying with me back in the house - I am moving back to the house this weekend and will be out of apartment. We are behind in mortgage payments and struggling - so its only a matter of time in the house. Its been up for sale since Nov and still no offers - may become a foreclosure at some point - I am fighting the good fight right now to keep the sale a possibility.

My W will head south on about June 24 and I will have my D11 with me in NY until about July 4, when I will fly with her to Florida to drop her off.

Now that its gotten closer - I am dreading the day it comes to say goodbye to D11. Plan is to move to Florida at some point in the future so I can be near her and watch her grow up thru teen years. Have to sell house first, and then find job down there. I also have to make sure my D21 and S24 are settled in some way.

My present job consulting is only thru Sept, so I am working the FL AND NY job boards to keep employed beyond Sept.

You could say I've got a few balls up in the air that I'm juggling, so there are times I feel overwhelmed. I take one day at a time.

Although I have not given up hope for reconciliation, I know its remote possibility now and I know I have to move on with life and make the best of the situation I am in. I keep hope alive in my heart and outwardly, I continue to try to show strength and acceptance.

I didn't think I'd find the strength to last this long, but somehow I did, so I'll find a way to deal with the next chapter.

I have to say that I find this move W will be making to be very selfish, and the anger and resentment I was able to overcome months ago is bubbling up from within me again.

So - game plan is to enjoy my time with the family intact for a few weeks in June, and face the obtacles beyond as they arise - one at a time.

Thats where I am right now - for better or for worse.