Start of the end..

[iwantittowork]

Thanks both of you, I took the last couple days to 'break' but at times it just seems like I am suspending my life, and have to come back to it eventually.

Have not felt much like posting lately, been having challenges of self doubt, etc. Dropped d9 off at her school and stbxw was in the next room laughing with her work buddy about something.

I know I can't focus on stbxw, but things like that make you cringe, and think about how she has already got new man in her life, tons of free time, plans to go back to college, house that I pay for and will be for years to come. She could quite literally not do a thing for work, and have more money coming in weekly from me than most people in the area make at a full time job.

Meanwhile, how do I take myself from thinking about that to living well myself, when the focus of my life is d9 and taking care of stbxw now?

Finding ones self in this mess seems to be difficult, that's to say the least. I had been doing better, but still not where I would like to be, time to push on somehow..