Hey! I guess I was thinking of my adult life with WH. A reason to prepare a beautiful meal to share with WH alone or with friends, my best friend to go to a favourite restaurant with, a husband to share every minute of this new life with.....ya know, the 'adult life' I was meant to be living.
I'd like to propose that you're meant to be living like you are now, without WH. Why? I don't know. But perhaps there is a purpose.
I know you miss H! But try to let it go for now. What would you do if he were military and he had to be gone? That mindset could help. (While understanding the reality, of course.)
Now, I've never had a newborn. (Yet!) But what I would do here, when I was missing adult companionship (and I know you mean WH but we've got to do what we can do), is start making PLANS for a month out. I'd imagine that by July at least, P, you could take bub on short road trips with friends. Skiing? I don't know if you can fully do that, but maybe you can at least go to the area for the day. But if you could have handled baby stuff with WH, then you can do it with as friend!
Also, shop for new clothes asap, schedule a massage, whatever you can do!
As far as visitation, I don't know. I will probably let mine come over as often as he wants, but I won't be there all the time. I'll take my mom and we'll go somewhere else for an hour. (Walking, swimming, or tanning probably in my complex.) This is what I imagine, at least! WH will stay in my apt with baby and his fam. (After the initial visit.)
