The affair started in Jan 09, he left intially in July 09 returned and then left in Sept 09.
I think he feels huge guilt about what he has done to me and the children. Having said that when he was 'awakening' it was lovely to see old H emerging from the depressed 'old' man he has become.
One of the most frustrating things is the way he now ignores the children ringing him. I am sure that OW is tightening the rope and putting more pressure on him too.
I know his world is not happy or fulfilling hence the holidays to capture some of the happiness he wants. Hence the depression when he gets back because he hasn't found it.
