Looking for help with WAW

[mza8]

Thanks IDU. I don't feel like I'm doing so great lately though. I was officiating a youth soccer tournament for the past three days. I found myself thinking of W a lot of the time. I thought it would be a distraction. Not so much.

CityGirl...sigh...I'm lost. She ripped my heart out. I miss her and want her back so badly. All of this because I was depressed after my company went out of business and now it cost me my M? I used to be a fun person, always joking and keeping things light. What happened? I cannot believe that because of what happened to me and how it affected me that I am not afforded an opportunity to make things right. Never mind, I'm just finding a different way of saying the same thing.

I was reading the book, 5 Languages of Apology. It gave me the idea for the letter. The book talked about telling the W that you truly recognize the mistakes. Don't know if it would mean anything to W to hear me say this to her? I don't know...probably not.

Not really any finances to split anymore. I'll know for sure in a month if I can afford the house on my own and would then tell W. I haven't retained an attny yet...talked to several but haven't retained one.

I've always been the type of person to gather as much info about any issue so I can try to make the best decision. Listening to some of my friends tell me their stories just helps me try to collect a bit more knowledge about this type of sitch. I can't bring myself to say it's over. I want to save my M more than anything.

You could be right that it's either A or B. God, please let it be B. It's getting so tough to remain positive. I gave her my love everyday. Even when I was depressed I still made sure she knew how much I loved her. I just can't give up.