Talked to H about boundaries. He was not happy about them but said he has no control and its in my hands. Feel like yelling you could go to a IC to see your issues are!!! But what good would that do. Nothing or no one could make him feel differently for me. He doesn't love me.
So I text him this afternnon, after a weekend of crying and fighting and too many tears. I said the divorce papers are here for you to pick up. I get a reply about an hour later telling me he grilled food wand would I like some?! Seriously!!!!!!!!!!!
I know I shouldn't have but I called and calmly said, this is what I'm talking about. You don't love me and yet you want to always send me a "friendly" message of some sort. He said I read into things too much. So what... I admit it I do! But I didn't ask today if he ate! Said I'm the one who can't handle him as a friend in my life. I said what about the texts I sent you, said he never knows when to believe me. Says he ignore my angry messages bc he know they're out of anger! UGHHHHH
Am I his blankie? There for comfort, because he is afraid to move on completely? Tries to pull it off by saying he was just being nice and wonderef if I wanted to go over and eat or if he shouldve brought food to me? What?!!!!!
