The year of not my problem

[AJM]

Journaling:
More contact from wife's aunt. She doesn't want me talking about it with family. I can understand that. She was angry with w about leaving. Showing support. Very kind, but I urged her to reconsider and see things a bit differently. There is much more to why w is leaving. Aunt figured it out - she remembered the childhood and what happened then. And w's reaction to it. While this is not all of it, it is part of the equation and needs to be dealt with. I wish her luck. I realize there is nothing I can do about it. I can't even be supportive because I have been asked to exit the ride.
I notice that w is gaining a little weight. I think that's a good thing because it means she is not running nearly as much. That likely provides a little insight into her mental state meaning she is likely calming down a bit.
we actually had a pleasant exchange of words this morning. That's a nice change and may make things a little easier until the house sells. A little less stress would be nice.
Otherwise, I'm doing pretty well. I hated getting that text yesterday. I really did. It pushes me back into the roller coaster and I don't like that. There is no need for me to be on that ride any longer.
I really do wish STBX all the best. Even with the mean and nasty comments and anger she has spewed at me. I'm slowly teaching her how to treat me. As if she has had an emotional stroke or something. But I refuse to return anger with anger. It serves no purpose and I am better than that. I will continue to be better than that. Regardless of the circumstances. I have my self-esteem to work on

AJ