She is very protective of me. She is afraid I will be hurt further.He has a long history of serial unfaithfulness and letting me down. She has seen the pain of the last 3 years when I thought I would go mad and never survive without him ( I was abandoned at 2 and have dependency issues).Ive lived with him 28 years and although he was always a private person -secretive- I reckon I know him better than anyone else. He is vain and weak but basically not deliberately cruel. He has never said anything unkind to or about me except that day in 07 when he broke down and said he couldnt move to my home town with me in retirement,as planned.Right now he will be feeling frightened,guilty,regretful and resentful.Basically he doesnt know what he wants and is still floundering. At one point I told him that after the divorce I never wanted to see him again,but now I have accepted my life on my own and would like to be his friend.I know he doesnt want to let go either.
