SA, AJ, DG, Dudess, CW, Twink, SCH, Glam, Shelbel, GAG - thank you all, your input is much valued and appreciated
SA - this darn detachment part is so hard, I want to get better at it NOW
AJ - I was thinking about why do I still have the need to explain myself to him. Like the reasons for my actions. I think that it's because I don't want him to think that I'm angry with him or that I'm trying to control him by not talking to him. I should be in a place where I don't care what he thinks....and I'm not.
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Let him see the happy Mila
How do I do that when I'm dark? When I show him "happy" Mila that would mean that I'm friendly towards him. I don't know how to do both at the same time....Am I missing something?
DG Thanks for trying to make me feel better
Dudess - LOL....hmmmm "dream lawnman"
Twink - good points thank you...after a day like this I don't feel that I'm doing that good. By being "dark" I can't really DB and when I react the way I did today it seems that I counter-DB.
AJ -
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You barely know him right now. He looks like someone you knew, but he isn't right now.
I have to remeber that when I talk to him. I still expect the same reactions from him that I was used to for 36 years and obviously I'm not getting that now....and it hurts
CW - It's true they are going through their own rollercoaster, some days he looks so down and today he looked happy with himself.
SCH - Thanks I will repeat that to myself 100 times every day "I'm sane and he is not"
AJ - Thanks for the great quote...it's so true....I obviously need some of that healthy attitude.
Glam - I believe that he cares, he even tells me that he does and that he wants to see me happy and smiling and he even tells me that he loves me...accept not "that way". Yet at the same time he does all of these really hurtful and thoughtless things. Rationally I know it's due to MLC but emotionally I'm not handling it well. I have lots of work to do on myself.
Shell & SA - it's weird how he thinks that because he has moved out he legitimized his affair, they can find a way to justify everything.
GAG -
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Is it possible that H wanted to be at your home just because he misses being there?
It's possible, he will of course never admit it now. Maybe that's what he meant when he said "you don't know everything"
GAG - Thanks for your GAL suggestions. All done already...need more ideas Blond Highlights - Check Fake (and real)tan - Check Teeth whitening (in the process)- Check Red (Pink) Toenails - Check Peep toe sandals (black) - Check
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