"person who was more prepared or had a game plan?"
You can't answer a question with a question.
That gets you no where.
You doing that just implies that you know what to do.. but you are scared. Or.. not ready.
What is your game plan? How prepared are you?
"a bit. but it makes me think. it makes me use my brain and not my heart."
So it is a quirky smile? I am alright with that.
"i can see what triggers an emotional response from me. it really depends on the advice i am given. if i am being told what to do, i dig my heels. if you make it come from me, then i am likely to be convinced."
Actually I was kinda impressed with Coach asking the questions. What was he doing with that post? What can you learn from it? I felt a bit of "Emotion" in Coach's "question post". It was almost a "Crazy" post. Last I heard he was gonna retire. Maybe he is still looking for something?
"just a complete nutjob. smile that's why you get it when i rant and just lose it. see posts from last week."
Hey.. I resemble that remark!
"don't want you to recall it here. i rather you just point me to it and i'll read it from there. i don't want to make you re-live that period of your life."
DB.com.. well it just sucks to search. With the random locking.. and moving to archive.. yea might as well pee into the wind. Links stop working.. stuff gets screwy.
I did not have an active presence here. I did not journal it out. Chalk it up to me being different. I will look thru the link's tomorrow and make sure it's there. If you beat me to it let me know and I will try and find it. I have come under fire cause I don't have everything here.. All nice and neat. It was not my intention.. it just happened that way. Sometimes.. it is hard to go back and fix your wrongs. Sometimes.. it is just better to move on.. and show people.
"i don't see my h so i don't know if he will ever see this change in me."
Well.. right now.. not sure I want you to see him.
I suspect there will be some chances.. soonish.
If not.. we can create some.
"i gotta figure a way on how to practice not giving that look though."
Really? I would have never guessed.
"i have to be a bit creative."
Go on...
"if you ask people like my co-workers or friends, they will tell you that i don't have a threatening "look". at work or with friends, i don't use my heart. just my head."
I am confused.. thought your H was your BFF. Why do you look at him different?
Oh.. that's right.. he should know what you are thinking.
He married you and everything.
Silly me.
"i don't know. i hope that if i do change this part of me, that i can maintain it and that it would become natural."
It is easy to do what comes naturally. Look at what you have done.. all because he should really know.. what you were thinking.
"tonight, i spent time with a friend for coffee at the local Starbucks. she said i was too thin and needed to be fattened up. i gotta eat better .."
And sleep more.
"thanks for hanging around."
The only reason I am here.. is because I think you have something to show me.
I appreciate your words. It will mean so much more once you actually do something.
The "Work" is all laid out. It is in the posts.
What now?
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
