Better Days

[ImprovedRomeo]

You have a way of putting a lot of things in words that I often think about. Like this:

I don't know, seems like I'm slipping into an acceptance of this as normal. I can tell you that I miss XW being here with me, but it's not as strong,

and

I think my biggest complaint right now is that I feel lonely. In enjoying my backyard the last couple of days, it still occurs to me that we bought this house to be together, the stuff we did in the back as part of our life together, and now it's just mine - it makes me sad, but it doesn't hurt like it did.

and finally this...

Also, I tend to wonder if I miss the relationship I thought I had, vs. the relationship I really had.

has anyone felt a reluctance to finally admit "I feel OK" because it's like - giving in, dismissing the significance of what's passed?

Yep, I feel the same way...it's like I don't want to accept it completely or else I'll be walking away from such a significant part of my life. It's hard to see it gone forever like this.