luv, I understand. The heartache still resurfaces when I least expect it - and usually by the simplest of memories and realizations. Rare, but 18 months post-bomb,4 months post-D. Go figure. It still takes - and will continue to take - time. Time, I have. Just wish it would go quicker.
As an LBH, I understand and commiserate with the financial woes. Get creative, re: spending, scaling back drastically. This will be a distant memory one day. Will keep you and your full plate in my thoughts an prayers. Hope knowing that will help you. On the selfish side, it will help keep my mind off my piled-high plate.
You can do this. Step by step, day by day, hour by hour. I may not have mentioned this before - or I may have mentioned it several times (who remembers at this point?), - but please check out The Journey From Abandonment To Healing
A good three-day weekend, to you, too, friend.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
I hate the heartache and the lonely feelings when the kids and WAS are gone. It just makes you think about the M that much more.
You are doing so much better than me. I feel for you so much and what you are going through. It is just terrible, but you will be okay.
You have an incredible amount of strength that I envy. You are wonderful and remember you help so many people here by the dignity you have shown in your sitch.
Let the good and bad times come and embrace the good as much as possible.
Take care of yourself and a great weekend.
ME-41 W-33 M-8 D-8 S-4 D 5/17/2010 www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1961097#Post1961097
Gardener - I have every intention on reading that book. Thank you for the much needed prayers. I have to put things in perspective. I must remind myself my former husband is not crying over me.
LSG - What nice things you have to say. You are a good person and I see your strength too. You come here and always give me support even in your bad situation and when you are feeling your lowest. That is courage. Thank you!
Today I'm am feeling much better. It's Prom day for my daughter. We went shopping this morning to get a few needed things. She is excited. On the way to the mall she says to me, "mom how can I tell dad how I feel?...I mean I hate him right now!" I said, you can always tell your dad how you feel you just have to be respectful. She is the most hurt by all of this so I talk to her all the time and reassure her. I'm glad to know she will remember which parent was there for her!
She is wearing a beautiful dress her dad bought her and she's gonna look great so I am happy for her. I am going to a party myself tonight. At first I wasn't gonna go but I decided this morning...I need some me time so I am gonna go have some fun.
Luv you guys....
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M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
I was lucky enough to have a good day yesterday. No sinking feelings or sadness. I even went to a party and felt ok there with other married couples. There were 2 guys there from the last party we hung out with Mr. Luv who said to me, "hey where is your husband?" I replied, "I don't have one." They said, "congratulations" because they thought my former husband was a jerk. It still hurt to hear them say that. None the less I had a good time last night.
Today I feel blah....a little sad...and very much mad that I am left with all this responsibility and Mr. Luv is off doing whatever - puke! I'll try to stay upbeat but I feel like it's gonna be one of those days.
For me today I'll get some reading in by the pool it's so beautiful out.
Hope everyone is enjoying their Sunday
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M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
Hey mind nice to see you I hear you man...I just got a hundred list to do from his attorney too. They want to know what assets are in the house - my response? you know what the f*ck is in this house - make a list!
I have such a lovely attitude don't I? I have to prepare the credit card lists and assets and copies and paperwork while HE does nothing! ....story of our life.
Luv
btw I miss you mind!
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M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
I didn't rest very well last night. I woke up at 3am and could not go back to sleep. It wasn't that bad though. I usually lie there and feel sad but I didn't. I felt a sense of peace - those prayers must be working.
I'm tired but I have a busy day. I've got to prepare for my daughter's graduation this Saturday and my best friend's wedding the week after!
I haven't had any contact with my attorney which is nice because life feels somewhat normal. I have really organized my home and it's very neat and clean which makes me happy.
I'm thinking about dating soon...nothing serious just make some new male friends.
Luv you guys
M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
I am glad you found some peace last night, and it is good that you are busy. Not talking with your attorney must be nice. I am glad that you have had some time to think about some other things than your sitch only.
It will be great for you to have some male friends just for friendship too if that is all you want.
Keep moving forward!
ME-41 W-33 M-8 D-8 S-4 D 5/17/2010 www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1961097#Post1961097
I hear you man...I just got a hundred list to do from his attorney too. They want to know what assets are in the house - my response? you know what the f*ck is in this house - make a list!