CityGirl, the reason I am having trouble doing those things is because I feel like I've already pushed him so far. I feel so badly. I feel miserable.
From Nov 07-Jan 09 I was a nightmare. I dont know what I happened to me but I just basically snapped. I yelled all the time. I criticized. I was a horrible, horrible, horrible human being to be around and to live with.
I just want to apologize. I never knew it was hurting him that bad. For whatever reason, knowing that he cared enough to reach out really got to me. Like, he was trying but I didn't even know it and couldnt see it then.
Now I feel even more confused. I want to unpack all his stuff and put it back.
