The first hearing was awful. I had wondered if he would turn up-its a 3 hour drive for him-and my soliciter wanted to talk to him face to face before we went in front of judge to try to reach some agreement. He turned up 10 minutes before we were due for hearing and was shown into a seperate room. My soliciter went in to talk to him but came out after 5 minutes saying that he was becoming really upset.I wanted to rush to him of course but both my sister(there for support) and soliciter said give him time to collect himself. The hearing was moved to an hour later. After a while my soliciter went back and put her/our new proposals for settlement. H had turned down earlier proposals so we came down a bit to what I considered a fair split. She returned and said he had agreed to reduce house price and conduct all viewings with estate agent present.He still felt settlement high(75% of house sale in full and final settlement not touching his pension or claiming maintenence)but needed time to think about it. Asked if he could see me so I went into the little room where he was waiting and we were left alone. Im afraid I ran into his arms and he held me and sobbed and sobbed. I hadnt seen him for 2 years. He looked awful- suit grubby,unshaven,really down at heel.He said he "talked to me every night" and couldnt bear the thought of not ever seeing me again. We discussed other stuff like his parents recent death but I felt so overwhelmed at being with him again I forget most of the conversation. I did ask "How did things with Helen pan out?" -woman he left me for he shook his head and said it didnt.In court,judge arranged 2nd hearing date and hoped we could reach agreement by then. He left then and I got a "bless you x" text nothing since. I cant say how much this has put me in an emotional turmoil I feel cruel but he caused this.I still love him I guess.
