Start of the end..

[iwantittowork]

I just don't know how I am doing.. Forgive me for venting a bit..

I have never wanted to quit work as much as I do right now, and it has nothing to do with the work.

The commute, 45-60 hour work weeks, no free time, dealing with the pressure and all the crud of a workplace. For What?

When the gov and the ex are done with me, I will be lucky to take home 25-30% of my pay when I do the numbers that the court has proposed.

The reality of that is I will need to move, quite possibly have to move back in with my parents to survive the next few years..

I am not sleeping well right now, with all this, and not sure what my next steps are..

I just don't understand it, if it stays the way the judge was saying it would, my ex walks away with half of all my cash assets, all of her inheritance, the house and me paying her more every year in support/alimony than most people make at a job in her area, while I get left with the liabilities and debt..

My L seems to think I am not getting a bad deal, and I am trying to come to understand how he believes that.

Also, court is September 24th, and I want to hear my stbxw proclaim on the stand that a used luxury suv and fake boobs were the best financial decisions she could make at the time of our separation.

I am just feeling distraught at this time, and not sure where to go....