It has been 4 months and 6 days since the bomb but at least 5 months since my W started to "fall out of love" with me.
Sometimes this all just baffles me. Like this morning, W is getting ready for work, I wake up and turn to her as she stood beside the bed and ask "how do you feel, arm still hurt" and W responds "umm hmmm" and I think "what did I do from the time I slept to the time I just woke up and asked you that question to piss you off now?"
My W decided to wear the sling to work. I got out of bed and went down the stairs to assist her with anything she may need assistance with.
I am standing on one side of the kitchen as W asked if I could grab something from the fridge, I head to the fridge but obviously not fast enough because W immediately said "NM I'll get it myself, can you do this instead" with an attitude. W puts on boots and attempts to tie the laces, I offered to help but she refused. She rather struggle and hurt than to allow me to help.
W was leaving, I closed doors behind her and said "bye" and she walked out and she did say "bye" in return.
And honestly, I don't doubt for one moment my W is serious about leaving. Despite everything we do together I can still see her walking out the door just for her to proof a point to me and herself. If she can make it a few days, she'll make it a week and if she can make it a week she'll go for two and so on till she can do without.
I watched my W shut her own mother out and to this day still does so.
Last edited by OfficerInNeed; 05/30/1007:22 AM.
M: 27, W: 25 Together since: 01/31/00 M: 10/4/09 (8 Months) ILBNILWY: 01/24/10 EA confirmed: 02/10/10 (Busted). Road to Reconcile began: 07/10/10 Retrouvaille: 09/10/10
