Confused and looking for advice

[hockeymom12]

Ss last nights anxiety ran into today. I was doing so good and then the sight of H today set me into a panic. I miss him and love him so much. The good part is that I did not show my panic, I stayed upbeat, happy and we generally had good conversations while he was at the house. He then sent me a text in the afternoon questioning the charge on our CC for DB sessions. This upset me since his biggest frustration right now is money, I was hoping he wouldn't see it since he does not get the bills but I guess he is checking them online now. I just told him it was something I needed and would pay it off with my money not our joint money, he left it but I was in a panic about how angry he was so I called him!!! I know the wrong thing but I did not bring this up at all, all I asked him was when he was going to be at the house the next day, he asked why and if I needed something which gave me an excuse for why I phoned him so he did not think I was worried about his text I told him that yes I needed a few groceries and since he is in the city (and I am not) it would great if he could pick them up and he said yes. That was the end of our contact for today. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.