NM, not questioning your actions. Honestly I feel for you. I've been in this for 5 months, and feel I can not take another day. Can't imagine how you feel. I get my moments, like today where I'm ready to just hand in the D papers and have it be over with. No point in holding onto them. Yes our sitches are different, my sitch doesn't involve OW. Instead my H left and would rather be with no one than me and his son. Sometimes I wonder if OW would make it easier for me to let go. Regardless, its not easy, and I know you will do hwhat is right and best for you. Sometimes I tell myself what is the difference if the D papers go through, right now we are legaly married and it doesn't meant sh!t. Sometimes I also think sign the papers and if he ever wants back he'd have to start a whole new relationship with me anyways... Just something for you to think about.

(((Hugs)))