Upside, I'm sorry that things haven't been going well or as you had hoped that they would be after 3+ years or so. If your h is in MLC, it takes a very long time for them to come out the other side. Your h was inching slowly in the right direction and pressure doesn't work well w/them. They generally will take the route that has the least work to it. I will be very surprised if he doesn't file the papers. He feels pressured to do something that he's not ready to do, i.e., divorce your or to move home. He's still in a funk and has to figure things out.
You sound like you are done w/the entire situation and yet, you state that divorce is not what you want. If you are not sure that divorce is what you want, why did you sign the papers and take them over to him? You could have sat on them for a few days and allow things to settle down a bit. I do hope that he will put them in a drawer and allow them to sit a while before filing.
Is a divorce what YOU want? Are you really ready to move on?
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
