Well this just keeps getting uglier and uglier. Just had two local officers show up a couple hours ago, apparently she called them claiming to be concerned about firearms in the house. Something she KNOWS cant be true, since they were confiscated on Tues when she filed a false TRO against me, the second time in three years she's pulled that little stunt. Todays visit, plus the BS Child Services inspection on Thursday all adds up to some seriously LOW and vindictive [censored].
I was pissed , maybe perturbed is a better word ? That I have to deal with these repetitive and nonsense unsubstantiated claims. Even said so to the officers , they seemed actually embarrased and apologetic to have to come out, but they have to check out every claim regardless. I even pointed out theres GOT to be a point where repeated unfounded reports and allegations simply MUST rise to the level of harrassment and false reports.
Suffice to say I am STUNNED by the level of visciousness she has resorted to in an effort to hurt me, even though I understand the motivations from a purely intellectual level. Funny thing is , as quickly as I was pissed , I felt sad for HER. That she feels a need to resort to this nonsense. Its almost like she doesnt care what happens from her actions, as long as she can lash out at me in the process.
And oddly enough, theres still a big part of me that can still see the possibility of a future together at some point way down the road. This isnt REALLY her, she's hurt, pissed etc and is trying to hurt me in retaliation, I understand that part and can see it for what it is. But I do have to wonder, how could I EVER really trust her again ?? Then again, she has a valid reason for asking the same of me. After all , she did ask me to do things she needed that I promised I could and would do, and in fact did do for awhile, before sliding back to bad habits.
I can almost feel my resolve hardening to NOT be terribly open to anything she wants when it comes to a custody arrangement. Not after this latest stunt. I can see for certain that Im going to be dealing with quite a bit more such harrassing activities in the future. Im sure its gotta be pissing her off on some level that its not working the way she hoped it would.
