WAW Using God II

[pigskin]

Journaling:

Well just got pretty much all I need to confirm that the EA has gone PA. Saw a note OM wrote to my W thanking her for "sharing everything with me" and going on about how great it is to be at a new relationship level, can't wait that soon she will share her life, kids, etc. with him.

I told her at the outset that it would be a dealbreaker for me if she slept with the guy. I suspected it all along but didn't have hard confirmation.

I can't ever imagine being her husband again. Even touching her again. She repulses me now. I have to look forward to start anew with a woman who can cherish me as much as I cherish her.

I know marriages have come back from physical infidelity, but I just don't believe it is possible for me. We would be forever tainted. It's not like it was a drunken one night stand mistake. She knew full well what the implications were, knew she had kids' lives in the balance, and all we had built to this point. She can never be trusted again, and that is not someone I could spend the rest of my life with.

The good Lord has put me at peace on this. He obviously wants me elsewhere. It does not trouble me at all to drive the dissolution of this marriage. My kids and I will look forward to a much brighter future, unclouded by the actions of a selfish, disturbed woman.

I am so much better than I was at the beginning. My next companion will be getting someone great in all respects. It is actually refreshing to realize what makes a great relationship and marriage. I will know what to look for in the future. And it will be fabulous.

It's time to get past the dirty work, which I know I will handle well, and prepare for the next stage of my life. There are so many women out there with incredible character just waiting to meet the right person. Well, the right person is just around the corner, and I am him.