oh, yeah. I can relate. I think it's the new tech stuff too--like posts popping up on fb that leave you wondering! I also think there's bound to be some big abandonment stuff for we WAW's; our antennae are up just looking for clues so we can anticipate that big stab in our heart that's undoubtedly right around the corner. I got that going on, plus the whole "you should be dating people" and the fact that he clearly has an active social life even if he is intent that he won't get "serious" about anyone at this point. trying hard just to live in the moment and enjoy, but I keep worrying about when he'll disappear.
when I asked about trusting yourself, I wasn't very clear...I meant are you having difficulty trusting your perceptions of reality, of other people, of potential romantic interests? that was something I really struggled with, but seem to have come to terms with.
M60 H52 D20 M14 yrs OW-old gf from 1986 bomb-5/18/08 H filed for D-9/10/08 D final 4/24/09 xH remarried (not OW) 2012