luv,
I understand. The heartache still resurfaces when I least expect it - and usually by the simplest of memories and realizations. Rare, but 18 months post-bomb,4 months post-D. Go figure. It still takes - and will continue to take - time. Time, I have. Just wish it would go quicker.

As an LBH, I understand and commiserate with the financial woes. Get creative, re: spending, scaling back drastically. This will be a distant memory one day. Will keep you and your full plate in my thoughts an prayers. Hope knowing that will help you. On the selfish side, it will help keep my mind off my piled-high plate. crazy

You can do this. Step by step, day by day, hour by hour.
I may not have mentioned this before - or I may have mentioned it several times (who remembers at this point?), - but please check out The Journey From Abandonment To Healing

A good three-day weekend, to you, too, friend.

Gardener

"My soul, be satisfied with flowers,
With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them
In the one garden you may call your own."
Cyrano deBergerac