WAH in MLC with PA

[DiamondGirl]

Round 2

H came by to meet my son's bus after school. He came extra early... Not sure why. My mom insisted on going out and giving him a talking to... I didn't stop her as their relationship is their business. Told her to save her breath... And I was right.

I went out to wait for the bus to say goodbye to S13. H said if I had something to say then do so. I said I didn't. H said he'd wait in the car then. He went to the car and sat there for maybe 2 min. I chose to just sit and smile to myself, to show him and me that I still could.

After a few minutes H casually gets out of the car with a smoke and strolls over. (he could have smoked in his own car)
He said obviously you're smiling at something, so what is it? Spit it out. I acted distracted and said I had nothing to say I was thinking about my upcoming weekend. I told him it had nothing to do with him, that he wasn't the center of my universe. H took a few steps back and said that was the best thing I had ever said to him.

He started on much the same from last night, only milder. I didn't cry, validated where I felt I could but called BS on a lot of it. My heart wasn't in it to be nice to him but I wasn't going to let him chase me inside and not say goodbye to my son. He kept bringing up all I'd done wrong in the M. Tried to convince me that I should give in to his version of custody re: US visits. Stood firm and told him no. Said he would bring OW to my son's gr8 grad. Told him to expect a scene if he did. He said she was a part of his life so he would bring her.

After son got home he put him in his car. Before he got in the drivers side he said to enjoy the weekend. I said I would. He said I hope you get laid, you need it. I told him it would be nice to know what that truly was for once in my life and walked in the house. I couldn't help it, I'd had enough of his BS for one week.

I am so tired of all of this. I'm not in the same place I was last night. Don't want to be ever again. But I am so tired of my life right now. I wish I didn't have to deal with him.

What the heck was the point to H starting up again? What is he getting out of it?

Why can't he just go live with her and be done with it. I can't wait until he does. I need peace. I don't see that coming anytime soon.

I'm heading back to bed because I can.

I hate that I looked like crap when I saw him.