feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

Hey guys,

I'm just journaling...I'm having one of those days where my heart just aches. I went to the market in our neighborhood and I just had this sinking lonely feeling...ugh I feel so abandoned and left with all the responsibilities. I guess it still hasn't sunken in yet that my stbx husband really did the unthinkable. This is for real.

I have to watch what I spend which makes it so much worse. I've gone back 19 yrs financially where money is super tight. I know it won't be forever but it still adds to all the stress.

I have so much on my plate these next few weeks so please keep me in your prayers. Our D turns 18 and no more support for her so even less coming in. I wrote Mr. Luv today and he just gave me the "don't tell me about woes" stuff saying if I can't make it then sell the house and car. That he didn't even have a place to live. I wrote him back and said "you had a place to live you didn't want it."

Anyway...I feel tired and stressed. I'm fighting negativity every chance I get but damn it's hard.

I wish everyone a good three day weekend.