I feel like i need to contact WAW

[knightinneed]

Just had a ROBX-Gucci post marathon. The more I read the more I am waking up.

I know I was bad and caused much grief, but the truth is the way he describes the WAW is so much like my wife it is 100 percent accurate.

My WAW pursued me hard, and I even tried to break up with her when we were dating because I thought we were too different, and well it made her pursue harder. I gave in, because id never had such a beautiful amazing women pursue me like that, it made me feel like gold. That was then this is now.

I know the weight gain, wishy washyness, angry outburts, procrastination and depression, and my sister/family nosing into our relationship were major problems etc...

But the cruelness, the verbal bashing, her trying to be controlling etc... Was just a byproduct of her losing respect for me and giving up on the M, because i became a shell of the happy guy she fell for.

I know this now and so I have decided to officially go dark, and deliver one last message to a mutual friend, that I am DONE, I am moving on with my life, that I dont care what she does or who with. We eventually will need to be civil for DD1 but for now total darkness.

I will keep focusing on bettering myself with weightloss - enjoy my old friends, join groups on meetup.com, go hiking, start playing guitar again and become the most intersting man in the world, while she hangs on to her anger, delusions, hatred, and cruelty.

I will not allow my daughter to be around this either, because I am pushing for no less then shared, and maybe full and make her ass pay child support.

I dunno if their is a drop of love still in that heart, but i am tired of the disrespect. The email to my sister, saying she is getting a gun, and that she hopes I meet someone like myself so I may find comfort is just too much at this point.

Also the calling of my EX to dig dirt, the lying in court. She is completly nuts, and hell even if I did push her somewhat to madness I cannot be totally culpable to her actions.

She got herself locked up, and she chose to act violently. I hate to see it end, but well it must for now. When I re-emerge in 2 months at the next court date, she will see a lean, confident, matter of fact man with new clothes, cologne, and his whole life ahead of him on a silver platter.