despite the counselling session last night. the heart hurts today. i know it's supposed to get worse before it gets better. but it hurts a lot today. as i sit here and read the posts, my eyes well with tears. i'm so scared. i am afraid that i am left to wander the earth by myself. yes, i can handle it. but do i want to? what do i want? i want to wander the earth with my best friend. adventures are better shared than experienced alone.
like the song goes - it only hurts when i'm breathing.
i need to keep myself occupied for the weekend. i don't know what i have planned. but i'm sure money will be spent. hopefully not too much. i will definitely hit the gym. yoga isn't helping. i will keep my promise and try to smile more. i wish there was something to smile about.
time to book that getaway. first vacation alone. just do it.
