Gypsy - My boys are great, they love spending time with me, panic at the slightest thing that might spoil that. Fr instance, they staying at their auntie's tomorrow and i didn't know the address, so my oldest was panicking then memorised the whole address to tell me (he is 7). Love em to bits, they are my world.
What do I want to improve about myself ?? - Well, I want to like to be ok on my own. I get very bored, very easily and like company.
Oh, and sadly, I think your both right in what you say about the grieving process. I guess I did that and had that get over it relationship already whereby my latest girlfriend hadn't. I appreciate you saying it, tho obviously not what I wanted to here. I am not going to 'pursue' this girl and wll just be a 'friend', but that will probably take time as right now there is obviously emotions from me and I believe still from her too.
KK - Yeh, I'm not looking, I wasn't looking when I met this girl, it just sort of happened and then was great and tbh, I probably need (as said above) me time for a bit to really find me. For 15 years, but for 3 months and then 2 months I've been in relationships and not sorted myself out. Not sure exactly how to do that mind as I love company asI say. Would really love my own place but then reckon I'd get lonely (currently live with 2 friends).
I've also been unemployed for a yeah now, ot made redundant and starting to run out of money really fast.
So
Step 1 - Give up Smoking (again) June 1st is the day Step 2 - Get back to running (have cough/cold for 2 weeks) as that helps my positive outlook Step 3 - Get a job Step 4 - Get a place Step 5 - Who knows, we''l do first 4 first.
Thanks again for comments.
I think I'll be back here again for a while as people's insights definately help me, even when it's not what I want to hear, need to hear it.
Will try and sort of catch up with you to guys this evening or the coming days
