i appreciate your attention to my thread. i actually look forward to your response. i read some of your thread and responses. i wanted to know how you went from hopeless to your turning point. but somehow i couldn't find it. i respect your advice.
i think i made mistakes in my m. i think i overreacted at times when i shouldn't have, and i underreacted on occasions when i probably should have put my foot down. i have learned that my 'look' is quite threatening. i don't hide my feelings when i am being snarky. i make it known that you don't f*k with me. i never wanted to be pushed around by anybody. and i think i took it to a bit of an extreme. btw, when his parents left after christmas, i gave his mother the "look" when she looked at me with teary eyes. i saw through that act as she said how she could not live without her son.
i think i'm strong. when i use my head and not my heart, i am make good decisions. that is the GG that my friends, colleagues, and family see. i hate relationships because the heart is now involved. the part of me that i guarded for so long. the look must come from the heart. cuz i don't have a "look" when i use my brain.
