Hi AC, I'm so sorry to hear how low and hopeless you're feeling. Big hugs to you and sending good thoughts your way. First thing I want to say is that I am not sick of hearing about your stich at all. You have nothing to feel badly about, in asking for anyone's support. I do hope though, that you can change your focus today, from 'what will happen in the future of your sitch' to just what's going on today in AC's life. You can't control what's going to happen AC, nor predict it. I'm sorry I wish it were different. But sadly that's the reality of it and we all must accept that the only thing we can control is what our actions and thoughts are in the present. I know I know. Easier said than done. But that's one rope that must be dropped in order to maintain balance and a PMA.

That being said I'm quite surprised to hear that your W actually drove that far and took it upon herself to speak with your family about the D. AND that she then told you she did it? Ok. I'm sorry. But doesn't that strike you as odd? Doesn't that make you even the teensiest bit angry? For goodness sakes, IMHO that was none of her business to do... that's YOUR family and it's YOUR perogative (sp?) as to the when, what and how to share about your D. And then to leave you a weepy message about it to 'bait' you into replying? Yes I may be mindreading here so I may be wrong. It just strikes me as being very manipulative of her.

Again, I'm sorry. I don't want to overstep my bounds here but I'm concerned for you. Stay strong; thinking good thoughts for you.

I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.