Early Parole from the MLC Chain Gang?????

[MHL]

Happy BIG FRIDAY to everyone,

Sorry I missed Litte Friday yesterday, got too busy at work and then got home and had to get yard work done and do the "Dad" thing so the kids and I could enjoy the long weekend. But rest assured I was on the patio last night with a close friend, music from Mr. Jimmy Buffet, and a couple of cold Corona's.....was good and set the tone for the weekend!!

I have come to realize that my W is sticking her head in and out of the tunnel and it is going to continue for a while longer. I also know that it is not going to be enough for her to say the things I have been wanting to hear. She is going to have to follow those words with actions. No surprises here, more time and patience on my part is needed.

I still can look back over the last 11 months and see how far I have come and see how much I have grown. But I still have more steps to take on my journey, this I know.

Things I am working on,

Not getting upset with my W when S9 gets upset that she hasn't called in 3 or 4 days. This means not making judgements and then experiencing anger over a judgement I made.

Realize she is listening to every single word I say and is committing it to memory. I have to keep those words always upbeat and positive, never critical.

Continue to work on me and making me better as if she was never coming back, planning on a future without her. Following my aspirations and dreams and making them a reality.

Accept that I might be the only responsible parent my kids have and while it may not be fair I will expect little or no help from her, financially or otherwise.

Compassion for her instead of anger which will come at times but is rare at this point.

Trying to encourage (not force) my D13 to re-establish a relationship with her mom.

Continue to come here to vent, get and give advice, laugh, celebrate, chill out and kick back, journal, and meet new friends.

Cheers!!



Accepting