Some of you might remember me from probably over a year ago since I really posted on here. Well, I was doing really good, was over my ex (divorce still not done 2 years on but in the final few months now by the looks). I was seeing another girl. Well that one faltered and although I was disspaointed, I realised it was for the best and that we both helped each other through a marriage break up at that time.
I'm doing ok and was seeing another girl for about 5 months. I vaguely knew this girl and sort of flirted with her a year previously but she was still married so I left it and told her to deal with her situation and I wouldn't contact her to deal with that so as not to cloud her judgement. Anyway, I heard through a mutual friend that her marriage had end mid last year and got back in touch about Novemeber time. We met up in December then had a fantastic 5 months together. This is where my point of writing here comes in again. We split up 2 1/2 weeks ago and here was the reasoning :
She says she had never really dealt with her divorce properly, still thought of her ex a lot but had also started to have feelings or a work colleague (who without being horrible, shocked me as she is stunning and he is.....well, not even average imo) whom I knew she was friends with and let her go out with him etc as was not jealous at all. She told me this whilst in absolute pieces, crying her eyes out and i'm told she was like that for days. She also said she didn't like herself at the time and realised she wasn't being fair on me etc. I played it reasonably cool andhoped she'd chill out and give her some space and she come round but no signs of it as yet. However, we are in contact, we send each other jokes, I text to say good luck with medical thing she had going on and she replied 'thanx, that means a lot !!'. She also contacted me on FB after I posted something on my status asking if it was reference to my ex andthat she was there if I wanted to talk/rant. So we chattted some on msn since, very just friendly. She also apologised to my sister for not being able to go to her birthday drinks and the foloowing day (my sisters birthday) again wrote wishing her a happy birthday. That confused me as they only know one another through me so no real need as they highly unlikely to ever meet up again (or am i making more of that, is thatjust her being nice ??).
So there is the background. I am actually besotted and in love with this girl, she is my dream girl and i'm struggling to get over her 3 weeks in. Am I giving myself false hopewith the stuff she has done since ? that we might get back together ? Does it seem she still has feeling ?
FWIW, I have not done any begging, pleading romantic jeastures at all. I did the first msn chat after when she mentioned feelings for another man have a little anger dig, but nothing major and i apologised pretty quick.
I'm sure I've missed something, sorry so long and probs some spellng mistakes, but would greatly appreciate any advice. Particulary if any women out there have dumped a bloke before in similar circumstances and what her subsequent actions could mean if anything ??
Hurting bad, like worse than since 1 month from spliting from my wife (tho hindsight that was missing my life more than my wife).
