Kalni, I think that's correct. I have no drama to give. I can almost see how she gets angry that I am not playing along with her plans. How I won't be the one to kick her out. How desperately she wants me to do something she can point at and say, "see - this is why I'm divorcing him" I obviously can't guess what she is thinking, but that's how it feels. Bizarre and strange to me, but then again I am not really letting it get to me. I hope the house sells sooner rather than later. I'm suspecting that things will get worse as she tries to escalate things. There is really nothing left to throw at me; no stones left that can get to me. No arrows left except things with the kids. Yet she continues to try. My concern is that she is going to involve the kids more and may escalate this to physical abuse to go along with the rest. It's tiring to stay on my guard like this... But it continues to just be how it is. It just is and the days will continue regardless. I'll continue to protect the kids as best I can. I'll continue to protect myself as best I can, although I have nothing to really protect myself from or for; I am who I am and there is nothing left for her to take except physically. She is just trying so hard that I have to be aware of it. One of the hardest parts of this of late, has been trying to comprehend why the anger and desire to hurt me. This is what she wanted, not me. I do now, but I'm not telling her that in words. There is no point that I can see. There is no point in talking to her that I can see. I have enough to deal with that I do not need her drama and batshit craziness.
But it is fascinating. I can admit that.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
