As difficult as all of this seems..if you are anything like me, you will want the "pain" to just go away. You will want to "feel" better RIGHT NOW.
IMO - you really need to feel this. You still love your H and this is OK. It is why you are here. It is why you are holding out hope. Nothing wrong with this. It is a TRUE picture of your character. You love and you love deeply IMO. Recognize this. Accept that you have these feeling that are driven right now by a positive - LOVE.
Right now you really need to give yourself time. You need to be cut yourself some slack. Don't rush trying to find something to make all of the pain go away. IMO - you will just prolong it.
Stay in the moment - if you find that you are projecting the future - stop and realize that you are a wonderful loving person. A wonderful Mom. A person strong enough to endure the pain that you feel right now. Endure because you LOVE someone. Take comfort in this.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
