so...my first new paycheck got deposited overnight. I am no longer poor!!!!!!!!!!! omg--the past 2 years have been such an incredible financial struggle...and now, I'm stable. the relief I feel...I have no words for. putting a chunk into savings this afternoon.

I still may lose my house. I've been on loan modification for the past year and a half or so, and they keep changing the requirements and starting over, and I've been following all the rules and they still keep screwing around with it. however, I'm hoping that the next time I send in a pay stub, they will be satisfied enough to finalize things and take me out of limbo.

I am so doing the happy dance!!!!!!!!!! funny--it's not a surprise, it's about the amount I anticipated and it came when I expected it...but to see the balance actually show up in my bank account makes it more real. ah...to no longer live in crisis!! what will that be like?!


M60
H52
D20
M14 yrs
OW-old gf from 1986
bomb-5/18/08
H filed for D-9/10/08
D final 4/24/09
xH remarried (not OW) 2012