You were true to yourself. No games. This isn't about games this is life and living for YOU.
There is nothing to regret...
It WAS true. And the Truth is NEVER wrong. EVER.
Playing games = manipulation, and is wrong.
DBing is not about "you don't get love from me until you get your stuff together." It's about being a loving place that the MLCer can return to when they get their mind right.
You did just that. He was in a place where he could sort of interact as a part of the family, and you showed him that he was still welcomed by you in that role.
Standing is being that place. You should be proud of yourself for being that forgiving place last night.
Thank you so much everyone. I've been rereading these responses over and over, finding some comfort, trying to understand that being vulnerable isn't the same as being weak.
I'm going to have to print out some of these quotes and put them into my journal. It means so much to see them, to know that so many of you have been right where I am now and I'm not just a blubbering pile of goo. Well, maybe I am--but it's okay that I am! *weak lol*
I don't think my eyes have been this swollen since the first week.
I don't have too much more to add--I haven't moved very far from where I was last night. I'll be checking out everyone else's thread. Maybe I can lose myself in those & it will help me work through this.
You honestly have no idea how much I appreciate everyone here for your help, your words of wisdom & your prayers and well wishes. People can't understand what it's like to be *right here* unless they've been *right here*. I can't imagine how difficult it would be to go through this while trying to figure it out on my own.
I'm so sorry that any of us are here, but I'm so grateful for the wonderful people who have taken time out of their own pain to help guide me on this journey.
There is so much more work to do.
(((thank you)))
formerly known as "shelbel" Me 40, stbxh 40 DSs 9, 7 & 3 M9, T10 Stbxh is a diagnosed bipolar & an addict. The end.
