I haven't learned fast enough.

The one person who always stood by me turned to another because I couldn't fix what had been done to me. The only one I'd want to call hates my guts.

I don't want another H. I wasn't going to marry at all until I met H.

I can't relate to people. It's hard for me to even be social. I've got so many hangups, I'm too much work.

I don't want my kids to be like me. Awkward. Socially inept. Clueless about feelings and relationships. Unable to get close to people.

I'm not a role model for anyone. there are better ones out there. H found one.