WAS HE JOKING around since he knows you are not a fan of that idea?
No, I don't think he was joking. Nor do I think he was testing. I do believe he can't come up with any other alternative that works for him. He knows It won't work for me... or OW... Not after the hissy she pitched when we went for a drink during prom a few weeks ago.
"trying to figure things out" has been his mantra since 11/08. He has himself convinced they have this open and honest R, and refuses to see the deceptions it is based on. He says "no secrets between them" but it takes him 2 days to mention he took me out on a Sat nite. I wonder...Does he tell her how he misses me, how he still loves me, is having trouble getting along with out me, how he can't imagine his life without me, all these things he has been telling me over and over?
Why would he tell me these things? Why does he ask if the door is still open? To keep me in place at a distance that is comfortable for him, while he hangs out in a ho-tel, of course.
Like newmama, I am in a waiting game, or a out-waiting game. Who will give in first, me or ho. As things stand now, I have nothing to lose. Time is on my side. I am getting on with my life. I am actually enjoying the peace around the house. Yes it is lonesome, but not most of the time...I'm busy. H is a challenging puzzle that is interesting to try to figure out. Kinda like being dumped into a new universe with completely different laws of physics, and a desire to test them and figure them out. Or like Copernicus sitting on a flat planet trying to figure out the star movements. Hmmmm....enough philosophy!!
I thought today would be quiet. No such luck. H sent a text..."Hi". He called a few hours later to talk about my truck. It wasn't the lifters, but a split oil uptake. Warranty thing! Yippee!! That means I don't have to pay for the cute Mustang they loaned me, that my girls have been running all over town!! So, I have not gotten thru a full day of NC in awhile. This is bad. I am NOT initiating, but after awhile I'm beginning to expect to hear from him. and spend time wondering about it, and...heaven forbid!...look forward to it. This is not good for me.
I still think he is waiting for me to file.
"If you strike me down, I will become more powerful than you can possibly imagine!" 1st thread
