Had to drop off a couple things for the kids at W's house tonight. Kids had just gone to bed and she invited me in. She was putting out a very warm vibe. We sat on her sofa watching TV, and she laid her head on my lap. She said "How is it we f*cked up our M so bad, yet this feels so good and right?" I said "I don't know, but not for lack of thinking about it." She nodded, and she was right. It is feeling very good. We ended up talking and making out for two hours. Again we were teasing each other about witholding sex. We know it's too soon.
Something is "fixed" between us. There is a comfort, openness, and honesty between us that is flowing more easily and naturally than every before. We freely talked about subjects that would have been totally loaded guns before. We haven't yet addressed her A yet though. That might not be quite so easy.
