Don't get me wrong, I know the odds are low. I'm just saying I don't want to be the one initiating any reconciliation. Tried that. Doesn't work. Has to come from her.
What are you doing to attract her? There is a reason she hasn't made a move towards you.
Spider-Man and Peter Parker are the same man, same values and beliefs. Who is Mary Jane attracted to?
I have been what I feel is very attractive - not down or moody, always in a good mood around her. I think she hates it - she'd love for me to give her a good reason to justify her actions. I think she's pi$$ed because I don't and it makes her feel worse.
Journaling:
Talked to my W's pastor on the phone to get an update on yesterday's meeting with her. He said he saw a lot of encouraging signs and felt that she was open to working on the marriage but saw the OM as a huge barrier.
He said he and the women's counselor laid it on pretty heavy with her. I told him I am ready to give her an ultimatum; he agreed that it needs to be done, but asked me to hold off until he follows up with her next week to ask her what her current thinking is once she has had a chance to consider what they talked about. I agreed to wait to hear back from him for feedback before I deliver the message.
He told me that my W said I am a great guy and that he got nothing from her that would justify divorce in his eyes. He said he has the OM's contact info and he intends to talk to him to get his story and ask him why a supposedly Christian man is doing what he's doing.
He told me pretty much what I heard from my pastor, that he is impressed at the way I am handling the situation, and an inspiration. So I guess I am the poster boy for men of faith. If it is all for naught, I will still look back with zero regrets.
WAW Using God Me-43 W-40 M-14 S-11 S-9 D-7 EABomb 5/09 Separated 12/09
