Nothing feels like "home"....

[old theotherhalf]

And so he spins, and spins, and spins??? I don't get it, even after 3 years!?!?!

So, XH's neice, (like a daughter to me that was in my home ALOT growing up) is getting married June 12th. Of course I am invited. Well X got word the other day that I was going to be there. He is throwing a fit. Saying that I cannot come because OW is going and there is the restraining order. He argued some with the neice and now has not talked to her for about a week. She is torn. X is in the wedding and the closest thing to a father she has ever known. So she calls me last night crying. To tell me that I cannot come. If I do, X won't. I told her to not feel bad, that it was okay, and not her fault. We talked for awhile. Then decided I'd come see her before the wedding when they were getting ready. Later she calls back and said that her mom talked to X and that OW was now not going to come. (pouting because she now knows that family wants me there and not her) So i guess I am going at least for just the wedding.

I can't believe that he can be so selfish and self centered. I don't know this man at all. I wish I knew where my H went? I feel so bad for Neice. I cannot believe that he continues to hurt the ones that should have been the most important people in his life. I still would like to know what I and D18 ever did to him to deserve all the hurt he has put on us. What happened? I don't get it.

And to think, what a month ago, he was calling me crying that he missed me and needed me to tell him it would be okay. WTF!?!?!/