having one of those days...you know when everything seems to go wrong?
feeling a lot of pressure to make so many decisions...big decisions...what will happen to our home? where will i live? what will be my financial situation? how will i tell my family? i clearly have been avoiding and i'm not even sure where to start.
H is still very friendly with me. according to DB coach, we are in stage 2 - friendship. i'm supposed to treat him as a friend, nothing more. i've been doing ok...having PMA, being cheerful and things seem to be going well. good reciprocation and he seems to be interested in me (talkative, open, doing nice things). i backslid a bit today but hopefully not too much. although the coach made a good point that this is a pass/fail stage (no room for error).
feeling more and more like he's not having an mlc. know it doesn't matter what i call it but i think it really boils down to me hurting him deeply coupled with him being a runner.
still not holding my breath for anything but i'll tell you this much...some of his behavior is SO bizarre...friendly, sweet, intimate...and then wanting a divorce?
