I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

I still feel really empty. I feel lost and confused but it's not in my hands. It's in Gods.

I know you do. We have all felt that way.

Stop threatening to turn it over to God and just do it.

It's all out of your control anyway. Turn it over to Him and ask him to help you.

We live and learn, make mistakes, learn and go on.

You have to move on.

Many people here are worried about you. I am too. We can't do anything to help other than listen. But, your story never changes. You are in a bad spot in a lot of ways. You have to pull yourself out of it. We can't help you do that.

I continue to pray for you.

Remember: God helps those who help themselves.

I pray about it. It's really hard for me not to do or say anything. I haven't left a voicemail. I emailed once but very little talking.

I feel as though there's an inner turmoil within me for my soul. I have heard it so many times like God is talking to me through others and how people are saying WAW was removed so that I could focus on things I need to do right now and that things can change on that later.

I go from depressed to ok moods. I'm just trying to organize documents and prepare for my doctor appointments. Sometime next week I have to go to local hospital and try to get some insurance.

I'm kinda blah right now. Dead but I'm still hanging even if it's by a thread.

Alot of times when I think I can't go on someone posts on my thread or I get a text message on my phone or a phone call from someone or an I.M. from someone who just seems to know what to say even if I haven't talked to them in a long long time and they don't know what's going on.

The phone bill really angers me though. WAW knows I need it and knows I cannot pay this full thing. I guess ill have to do it for this month and then see what happens. There are too many doctors and family members counselors and friends who have this number and check on me.

That'll really put me in a financial hole though but what else can I do