I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

Thanks for the replies. Well I just found out I won't be getting s3 for memorial weekend.

One of my first loves found me on fb. She called and we had a nice little talk. A few nice little talks I guess.

Alot of old friends have been telling me stuff like this.

I guess when u r in love with someone and it is true love. Even when they hurt you you still love them. I count it all as life. Things are going to happen. If they didnt it would be life. Some of the best things come from the worst situations. God knows what he is doing...That is if you are serving him..either way there is a plan for your life. It is your quest to find that plan..

That is how the enemy works. He always wants a person to look at their current situation and not their future. You have a choice at this point to keep focusing on your present or focus on your future. The enemy is trying to take you out so that you will not bring to fruition the life that God has planned for you. You better open your eyes and see this thing. You are not in a physical fight..you are in a spiritual fight and you are losing right now. U need to pick ur self up and start building your relationship with God. You need the Word of God to breath life back into you. It is not about your family or your W that cheated and left you. It is about you taking control of your life by letting God fight your battles and be your savior

The enemy would not fight you so hard if there was no potential for greatness. And at times God will allow the things we have to go away so that we can focus on Him. God is the true focus. I can honestly say that no matter what anyone else in my family does I am going to serve God. People will come and go but God is everlasting and faithful. He will not leave you but often times we leave him for relationships. We compromise our faith so we dont have to be alone.

Serenity has as well as alot of you posters on this board.

Even the mutual friend is concerned and praying for me and WAW it seems that she realizes things weren't being told to her correctly. *sighs*

I have not heard from WAW since my bday weekend (first week in may)

Our phone bill is due (she hasn't been using it probably has another phone) and I'm stuck with this humongous bill and wondering if it's even worth it to pay because my money is extremely low.

S8 called me. I didn't get to talk to him. I was sleep. I'm really sad. I guess my M is over.

I wish I knew what was going to happen. But I will have to let God work his magic and start going back to church and trying to see what happens.

I still feel really empty. I feel lost and confused but it's not in my hands. It's in Gods.