Second, Your h is just plain nuts, i.e., bouncing all over the place. Yet, I have another thought...distancer/pursuer game. One time they are very nice and attentive and the next angry and moving forward w/the papers. Don't get reeled in on his fishing line. Continue doing what you've been doing all along...loving him unconditionally, but from afar.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
