still separated, headed for D?

[newmama]

I know I blab a lot on here- but it helps me so much!

OK now I was thinking about the timeline I posted. Here is the pattern- he brings the D up, I fight it, he drops it. So this time I didn't fight it. Therefore, unfortunately, it makes sense that he will actually go through with it. Do you see what I mean?


BUT here is another thought. It makes sense that he COULD be bringing up the D because OW COULD be pressuring him.He doesn't want to lose her (he is enjoying himself at this time so why not continue getting the sex and laughs or whatever they do),he doesn't want to lose me, BUT he thinks I will always be there because I have been this whole time. So he can come back to me if it doesn't work out with OW. (He THINKS).

Originally I told him (last May) that I won't wait forever and the window is closing. I think I said that in August. YET MY ACTIONS are showing that I am waiting for him.

OW (could be) telling him that she will leave him if he doesn't divorce me. YET she is still there and he hasn't divorced me, although he repeatedly brought it up. On her end, her actions are showing that she is threatening, but not following through, so now SHE is the one waiting and not following through. He has learned that if he brings it up to me, it gets her off his back for a little while...he is testing her! But she is bound to bring it up again. maybe any day!

So he could very well be waiting for one of us to follow through so he doesn't have to decide. Here is my reasoning for this:

In January 09, when I found out that he had "feelings" for her and I asked him if he slept with her he said no but he wishes he did so then I would just leave him and he wouldn't have to choose!

I am feeling like I should give him his wish....what would he think if he saw I was