ok, no wisdom at all? nobody's gonna tell me I'm obsessing, I'm looking for problems where there aren't any??!! oh, come on now!!
ok, so I was hormonal. I'm better now. interesting thing I realized today--he's a real person now, which is different from conceptual. warts and all. and I kinda like the real person even better than the conceptual one.
as for dating...don't need the drama right now. and really need to dwell in meeting my own emotional needs. not saying "never," but for the time being, I'm fine.
amazing how this stuff seems to go so much smoother for xH--once a target was identified, he moved in swiftly, assimilated that life form, and was one with it 24/7--until he got bored or sucked all the juices out and moved on to the next target. no loneliness, no eating alone, no holidays on his own...seems so simple for him.
and here I am, just trying to meet my own emotional needs. where's the fun in that??!!
M60 H52 D20 M14 yrs OW-old gf from 1986 bomb-5/18/08 H filed for D-9/10/08 D final 4/24/09 xH remarried (not OW) 2012