NM, i like the suggestion LauraOh made above!

i like how she said we have to "stop the cycle". In a sense I feel like that is what I did, although it was hard (still is sooo hard) but it seems to be working.

Keep up the good work! Keep your H on his toes... iread back and like when you met H to drop off son and you mentioned you were meeting a friend... wonder what he thought about that wink

Sounds like you are doing a great job... keep the faith!