H came to sister's house for BIL celebration. my family was so happy to see him and he was happy to see them. The kids all flocked to him and every acted like the past 4 months never existed. It was nice.
Birthing Classes went really well. We toured the hospital and learned a lot! I was excited when i left... H was too! Made a lot of 'we' references... we need to get the house ready, we need to pack our bag for the hospital, we we we we we!
He thanked me sincerely for being at the graduation and that he had a great day... next morning recieved a text saying the same...
then followed with calls asking if i would like his help this weekend to go look for paint and furniture and to pack up the things that are now in the baby room! No more of the I will go or you go and look and tell me what you like, now its WE CAN GO TO XYZ...
Called on his way home last night and said he had swatchesin his car to drop off and stayed for an hour... made himself comfy and just wanted to be there. We laugh a lot and just get a long sooooooo well.
I feel like this is 12 years ago, and he is trying to figure out his feelings for me. Calls and texts throught the day to see if I am ok, or just to say something or to ask if I am ok in the heat! Its nice to see missed calls on my phone from H and I dont answer right away or reply to all texts. Also still keeping things a bit mysterious and acting cool and confident.
I miss him when he leaves... I miss reaching out and holding his hand or him reaching out to hold mine. Weeks ago, he would sit across the other sofa and no contact of skin. Now if we are sitting next to one another in B Class, and he leans on me, or a hand grazes mine, he doesnt seem to react. He seems a lot more confortable around me.
When i saw him after graduation the other day, he welcomed me with open arms and we hugged... a Huge hug! It was so nice... i felt whole. happiest i had been in a long long time.
Feel like now he makes an exuse to come over and see me. Its nice.
